*This post was written last wednesday so please do some tortoise suthings ;p
Yesterday I went "home" after 5 months. The place that had been my second home for 14 years. When people came over to our house and found me and the brother missing, dad used to say.
They're there, they're always there, they only come home to sleep. I used to spend at least 3 hours a day at my music school at classes, taking classes, meeting friends, organising functions.
Every year
Navarathri* was a grand celebration of artistic offerings. Every student right from the beginner to the senior students would perform. The day you saw a bunch of boys walking awkwardly in their veshti's, you knew the mirdangam* students were performing. Everyday the background colour changed according to the days colour, and the golu* was different each year. We'd sigh and gasp watching little tots doing simple steps to the Shree Gananatha Geetham. They got the most applause despite some of them turning different directions, smiling sheepishly at their parents and nervously at their teachers. They were just so adorably cute.
You knew which instruments would be played that day by the serious expressions on the performers
waiting at the canteen with their instruments in hand. Decked in sarees, pavadai thavanis the gals sashayed about in laughter and anticipation. Students would hurry to get the best seats right at the front on the floor mats, giving space for the eager parents to sit on the chairs.
The evening would start with a recitation of prayers followed by thati kumbudal* by all dancers regardless if they were performing that night or not. Every performance was treated as an offering. A garland of budding performers, our patron used to say.
I remember my first performance at the then huge outdoor stage, the first time I did a solo vocal presentation, the first time we performed at the smaller stage (renovations were going on), the first time the students I had trained performed. The years I had 6-7 performances in 9 days. The first time I sang for dance recitals, I developed the "
do-not-look-at-dancer-method" as the mirdangist* was to refer to my thalam*. The time's I'd get off one performance and jump into the next and pray I don't perform the wrong song. The year the bro and I sang to full accompaniment and the crowd burst into applause much to my amusement. Normally we'd be lucky to get a mirdangist to accompany for the 15 minutes performance.
The on stage "
eye talk" with the teacher, the teasing of the mirdangist.
Shruti seriya iruhka? Ethucha? Aiyoyo I did the wrong step! Sir, korvai super!All this would go on, on stage without the knowledge of the audience, behind smiles.
You knew if a student had finished performing, the nervousness that was earlier there would have vanished, replaced by relief at having finished and amusement at the mistakes that had taken place.
The night would end with an arathi* and again the tathi kumbidal. Then making sure someone got you the daily prasadham* as you made your rounds at the end of the day discussing the performance of the day.
This year would be the first time in 14 years, I won't be performing there. For personal reasons I've backed out, right after I got back from the performance in India. Coincidentally this is the first year the celebrations are happening without our patron saint who attained samadhi* recently. Though I never regarded him as my spiritual guru, he was an artistic guru for all of us. He wrote and composed the most beautiful songs. Intriguing fact was, my friend and I were one of the last students to have the privilege to give a solo performance in front of him. Things happen for a reason I guess.
Vijayadasami would see us carrying trays laden with gifts and fruits as offerings in appreciation. Dancers would tuck in their sarees and dance impromptu to the compulsory pieces that everyone knew. The place would be alive with noise, laughter and new lessons in every available corner. Sometimes there would be the reenactment of the Mahisasura Mardini there or we'd go watch the poru* at another temple.
To me Navarathri is grander then Diwali. We don't have golu's at home as every temple and school would be packed with prayers and performances. We just take turns going to a different place but most of the days were at my music school. Months of practices would go into the preparations. By the time its over, all we'd want to do is rest for Diwali.
Yesterday was bitter sweet. I missed being a part of it, yet I was still a part of it all. I walked in to a hug from one of the kids. Everyone had the same question, where? Why? People and the kids were happy to see me, just as I was at seeing them. My friend and I just hugged, memories came back in a flash. I promised I'd come watch on the days I wasn't performing elsewhere. It was good to be back, though just as an audience.
Ps : Don't ask me who, where, why, I don't want people googling and turning up here this way
Navarathri* - hindu celebration of arts
mirdangam* - indian percussion
golu* - arrangement associated with Navarathri
thati kumbudal* - salutations by dancers
mirdangist - mirdangam player
thalam - set of beats
arathi - light offering
prasadham - food offering
samadhi - spritual gurus deaths are referred to as attaining samadhi
Mahisasura Mardini, poru - reenactment of a war between demon and god
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